I feel like im in a very random mood. Its kind of unexplainable, a feeling where there are no feelings. I guess thats good, its sort of positive that im not brooding about it, which im very prone to do. That gut wrenching feeling that comes when i hear a certain something, or read a certain something, isn't happening. Maybe thats just for now, but hopefully not. Alright enough with the weirdness.
College is off, so i've been making the most of my holidays, socializing till im ready to drop dead, on the phone practically all the time, not really leaving any room for thought. I am injuring myself, but blocking it out very well.
Shifting the focus from my supposedly never ending problems to those of the people around me. Ann, one of my best friends from college, broke up with the compulsive liar (henceforth referred to as CL) she'd been dating for 3 years. In my opinion she's handled it really well, i hope that what im seeing is not a facade. He was the centre of her universe for the longest time and vice versa, and quite literally too, because while he was in college they really didn't have many good friends apart from each other. And now, my heart goes out to her, my lovely, innocent friend who can give so much without expecting it in return. My Ann with a heart of gold. Be strong like I never was, because you're a better person, and always will be. Let CL of your dreams be pushed away by that of the reality which faces you now, let him wither away and die behind the masks of glory he's always erroneously sought and hence will never achieve. You've done all you could, now its time for u to come into your own, you beautiful person. I love you, and because i do, i can tell you that any person who really does, would never hurt you.
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